huhh!? just now...

toshio?? ottokaji?? what should i do??
just now.. i feel something i have never feel in my whole life; this is the first. What is this thing?? It is kinda nervous + wanna cry + hard to breath feeling.. After i saw something, i start to feel this. Is it coz of that something? Maybe.. but i kinda frustrated coz i can never own that something. Something that so fine, so perfect like that will never wanna be mine. Its just too good to be true. How eh~ hux3.. Even now my heart still in chaos.. I have unfinished assignment that due tomorrow yet something has made my heart hurt. This is just too bad. How eh~ Maybe coz im a loner ranger thats why i felt this kind of feeling.
But still...

konnichiwa!!!!^^

hehe.. lately im busy with my assignments and tests..

but but~ still have time to work on certain things lorh~
first, university that i want to further my degree to. i never ever want to study in uitm anymore coz it's soooo boring~ same things happens everyday.. n datz d only all -u-c-is-malay-people place in this country. hihi.. not that i despise malay, it just very boring scenario that going on n on in my life.. now that im 20es..(cewahh!!) i wanna have some adventures in my life..thus, i want to further my study outside of my homeland or if not, in um or ukm..
i can do it!! atashiwa gambaru!!!
besides that, i think it will be fun if i could master other languages; not just learn but master it. as my english lecturer said, we( in the english class~) often learn a language but none of us really master in that particular language. thats why in my entire life if i could master 2 or 3 foreign languages other than malay n english, i think it will be more fun in the future~^^ n ive forgotten about my former plan to get marry after graduate from uitm or to be a cute young grandma..hik3 i dont even know if i really wanna get marry in this age.... guess ive been more realistic now. i just dont want my children end up being in a broken family..hua3
anyway, my plan is fixed and i have to achieve it before my 27th b-day.:D enough with d plan i wanna buy something to eat.. soon if i have time i will upload my ads video n some stories~
later!!^^

happiness...not mine??

hihi.. look at the title.. so mellowlah~ngeh3 now, in exact 11:05 a.m. , im in my english class.. not doing anything.. But most important of all, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO RAFIQ!!!! getting another year older~ but still im older than u but a lot2 more kawaii than u..hik3 hope u lead a awesome life and cherish every moment in ur life.. omg! im starting to show the symptoms of an old lady!!haha.. whatever..
huhh~ i dont know why my mood is kinda mellow lately.. i feel like i have no will to live or something.. guess it's just coz i got depressed with bunch of assignments and probs.. but sometime i feel like im out of my mind.. even last night i didnt get any sleep..i rather watch korean or japanese dramas or movies for all night long than doing my tutorials or sleeping.. i wanna cry a lot.. actually i did cry.. i cry n cry n cry everytime i watch a sad scene. i dont wnna stop crying..that time.. i just want to cry... its just too much for me.. should i move on or keep waiting for uncertainty.. tho shio.......

Epik Cinta Selene

saat kabus mulai mendakap pagi

lenaku masih disesatkan hutan kegundahan
kotak jiwa ini seringkali dilanda mimpi ngeri
tetapi apakah semua itu akan kekal menjadi mimpi?
atau...

bibit-bibit cinta mulai tak menampakkan kekukuhannya bersatu
setiap madah terasa sedingin salju
cinta yang dulunya punyaku
masihkah ia menjadi menjadi milikku?
atau...

setiap butir mutiara yang jatuh tak punya erti
tiada lagi yang akan membuat alirannya terhenti
istana cinta yang dulu akulah permaisuri
adakah aku tidak lagi bertakhta di hati?
mungkinkah...

setelah berjuta purnama dilewati bersama
luna malam ini tak lagi bersinar seperti biasa
Petir persoalan menyambar-nyambar minda
mengapa cerita cinta berakhir lara?
mengapa kini pendayang yang berpunya takhta?

huh..mainan tidur itu bertandang lagi
meski hanya mimpi namun seperti terjadi
segala igauanku dibunuh oleh sinaran mentari
namun hangat pagi tak bisa menghalang air jernih gugur dari mata ini
menanti kesudahan epik cinta antara pungguk dan si belahan hati

-Lia Anz-

not-so-lucky day~^^

today is very exhausting..

got some unlucky things happen to me n got lots of tutorials but im too motivationally deficient to do it..

this morning when i on my way to class i slipped n fell from the stair.. its all uncle UK's fault coz i had to stop suddenly n clip my matrix card.. thank god i didnt got any injury.. not only that, i go to the wrong class.. u know when u in such a hurry that u didnt even got to see your schedule to see where ur class is.. i was confident my class was at blok C.. n then i check again to confirm n i was shock my class was at SL not at C.. i have to run to go to SL coz it is a lil bit far n im so very much late for the FAR class..haha thanx god again after that everything went good.. i was happy though~^^