Saturday, October 30, 2010

no more you...

its been a long time since the last time i feel like this.. got no one to lean on.. even i cry every night there is nobody know.. even him.. i think.. why we want to bothered with love if its never last.. we fight everytime we have a conflict.. even i told u to be honest with me u still prefer to hide things. u even rather walk away than solving the problem. u leave me here all alone.. crying alone in the corner of my heart.. we have promised to be together forever.. why that promise seems too easy to break.. maybe i should just love myself and only me. i gotta close and lock my heart.. i gotta throw away the key so that it will never open again.. and i hope nobody will find that key.. i dont wanna fall in love ever again.. i have no dream bout it anymore and i will never dream bout it again.. i better off alone anyway.. it is sad to be heartbroken.. i dont want to feel that kind of feeling ever again..
i... want to be alone.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

ha. ha. ha.

gosh... today is the boring day ever.. got nowhere to go.. i have done all my tutorials.. too lazy to study.. u know.. its a lazy day.. nothing to do but munching some snacks.. oo.. btw.. now i have my twitter~~ so guyz.. follow n tweet me at
Nyza Luffy !!! hihi~
i always feels like want to hangin out. but dont have much money with me lor..hihi.. as im typing i wonder if there is any grammar mistake.. sure there is.. u know.. im suck at grammar.. got a lot of scolding from BEL lecturer.. so sad lor..wuwuwu~ but i also try hard to improve it.. orewa gambate.. but no use.. it still the same.. so i just let it go lol.. its too hard to live worrying something like that.. so guyz.. if there really are grammar mistakes.. sory ooo~ hihi.. this is just another evening.. quarelling with my bf.. feelin lonely somehow... u know.. same old things.. whoahh.. im hungry!!! meishi ! meishi! haha.. i like luffy lot.. like strawhat pirates a lot.. like one piece a lot.. wanna know them? go to this website.. ahh.. i dont know what website coz usually i got it from my senior.. my senior is otaku lol..hihi.. my final starts on 25th oct.. its not that im not afraid.. but i dont know why im still dont want to study.. guess im just being myself..
ha. ha. ha.^^

a second to think...

when i was young...
i kept a treasure map floating in my head...
so the land of miracles i'd always sought
wouldn't be taken from me by someone i'd never seen..
and now...
the days are covered with dust..
but someday...
i'll leave everything..
and trust myself to the flow of time...
if the world should change...
take me back to myself..
when i was still innocent..
so that my memory will never fade...

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

kadang kadang aku termenung sendiri...

nape ek..
pe yg kite nak x pena kite dpt?? pe yg kite hargai sangat2 terase x berbaloi tuk dihargai..
disaat kite ingat kite dah punye sumenye.. baru kite sedar kite kekurangan sesuatu..
di saat kite pasti kite memiliki sesuatu tu.. kite tersedar yang sesuatu tu bukan kite punye..
disaat kite harap tuk dapat bersama2 slamanya..
kite terbangun dari khayalan..
kite tau kite bukan sape2..
kite x mungkin dpt miliki ape yang kite btul2 mahu dalam dunie ni..
ape la nyza merepek nih..hihi.. nga melancholic jap.. pe yg nyza nak sbenarnye adelah....hana!!!!!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

what should i do??

i feel kinda sad.. because i felt my bestfriend is like stay away from me.. do you know.. i have this one person.. he is the person i cherish the most after my fmily n bf.. we have been a close friend.. until now too.. but until one incident.. i dont know.. maybe it just my feeling or what.. it started when i know he has feeling for someone else.. its not like we bf and gf or what.. we are just close bestfriend.. but why i feel kinda jealous.. no.. i feel sad when i know bout his feeling.. i feel like something has been taken from me.. how can i describe this feeling.. kinda strange feeling.. its not love.. but something else.. i dont know.. its just sad when i 'ter'read his comment for someone.. coz you know.. he always been there for me.. though he much younger than me.. but he is more matured and understand me.. i tell him everytime i got a problem or sad or fight with my bf.. thats why.. when he have someone he loves.. i kinda feel like im gonna lose him.. i dont wanna lose him no matter what.. i cant afford to lose him.. no matter what.. i need friend.. i dont care if nobody wanna be friend with me.. i dont care if i walk alone at school.. i dont care if i will not have anyone else as my bestfriend.. but if by any chance he dont want to be friend with me anymore.. he take me as his common friend.. and we will not close anymore.. i cant even think about it.. just think of it make me wanna cry til my heart content.. thats why.. plish.. what should i do.. i dont want this feeling to go away.. but i know i got to let him go sooner or later..
my bestfriend..
i owe u so much.. i'll never find bestfriend like you anymore.. i'll cherish u forever.. now.. go find ur happiness^^

Friday, October 1, 2010

bEsTieSt 4EveR!!!

:-) Friendship (-:
Many people will walk in and out of your life.
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head;
To handle others, use your heart.
Anger is only one letter short of danger
If someone betrays you once, it is his fault,
If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.
Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.
He, who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.
Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.
Learn from the mistakes of others
You can't live long enough to make them all
Friends, you and me...
You brought another friend...
And then there were 3...
We started our group...
Our circle of friends...
And like that circle...
There is no beginning or end...
Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.
That is why it is called the present.

^^fify - nyza - atynn^^